Sam's One-Stop Shop of Spontaneous Devotion

***Setting of Post Start: my place, 10:29 PM***

     Another night, another long while to think to myself. And the first thing that came to my mind was Alexis. Sweet girl, she can literally be friends with anybody, she’s that nice. Hey, she made friends with me, and I’m probably one person that’s really hard to make friends with, to be honest, so yeah. She loves to draw and paint, and she works as a waitress at her local diner (at least I think, I haven’t actually asked her if she still works there). I’m just going to stop singing her praises there, I don’t want this to be an article about how awesome Alexis is, even though she is pretty awesome.

     It’s more along the lines of how close we managed to become in the past year and a half. As the people who read this blog (a.k.a. Alexis) know, the two of us met basically because of two things:

1. Stitch introduced me to her.
2. I had no one else to talk to, since Caleb and Michael were taking written assessments and figured, “Sure, why not?” Best “sure, why not?” decision ever…

Ever since then, we’ve been talking over Facebook a lot (okay, so half the messages are me trying to talk to her to no avail, it counts…kinda) and seeing each other when our academic teams meet (which in the past year has resulted in a incredible one time). I’m hoping that I get my intermediates by this summer, so I can drive me and Stitch up to Cloverport to meet her and possibly Nick. Maybe if I have a birthday party this year, I can invite her somehow.

     Now, I’m thinking that we became “brother and sister” sometime in February. It was when her granddad was in the hospital and was dying of…cancer, I think? She was strangely accepting of her granddad’s death, since he was dealing with it for a long time and was constantly in pain from it, and she didn’t want everyone to worry about him. Take note, this is based ENTIRELY on memory, since the earliest conversation Facebook remembers with her was April 27th of last year, but if it did have the conversation, than yeah, I would post everything from that and save it to my computer, because that’s probably the conversation where we pretty much became the two best friends that ever existed. Either that or when Alexis and her then-boyfriend Jake broke up (and I still get Nick and Jake confused to this day, go me). I also drew a remake of a drawing she gave Stitch when we first met for her around Christmas (she got it two days late because of the post, but it’s the thought that counts, right?).

     Ever since that day, we’ve always been there for each other. The previously-mentioned death of her granddad and her break-up with Jake, and my bouts with depression when Sierra was getting me overly worried and my lovestruck adventures to name a few. Another time I can remember is after when a gigantic storm passes through our area (we live 60-some miles apart, so it counts as the same area), the first thing we do is check up on each other to see if the other was okay. It means so much to me that the first thing she does after the storm’s blown over is check to see if I’m alright. And the thing is, we were both legitimately worried about the other (well, no duh, Sherlock) because we would always hear “There’s a tornader or something coming our way” (tornado spelled that way to emphasize that we live in Kentucky, so I had to exaggerate the Southern accent). To clarify, here’s her message to me after the last big storm:

He big bro. It was really stormy. I hope you’re alright. I love you. I’m alright, it’s passed. But I know you were worried about me and I was worried about you too. I love you. Be careful Sam.

**Also, she spelled “Hey” wrong. Won’t blame her, she was probably very stressed over whether I was okay or not that day. Aheheheh…     

     There are times when that friendship is kinda strained because of how we act. It’s normal, it happens to friends at least once in their friendship’s tenure. To clarify: lately, I’ve been in a bit of a rut, to put it bluntly. School is reaching the end and I’m not doing too hot in AP Language (that’s what I get for not turning things in…), Allison has been driving me up a wall with her relationship with Austin and I continue to play the supportive third wheel, and Sierra doesn’t want to talk to me at all. Overall, nothing is going right for Sam. Alexis has been my main crutch of support for when I get into these moods. Problem is, for whatever reason, I keep trying to drive her away and change the focus towards her. I keep accusing her of being annoyed by me, I keep making extremely long messages about how much I love her that make her feel guilty because she can’t love me back as much (technically, that’s leading me on, and she doesn’t want to do that, and I respect that), and I keep bringing up my crush on her over and Over and OVER and OVER and OVER AND OVER.  Eventually (a.k.a. today), she told me that this was actually RUINING our friendship (okay, she actually said “hindering,” same thing really). As soon as I saw that message, I said to myself, “Okay, I need to get my freaking act together…” …..Okay no, I actually panicked a bit when I saw that and rambled again. Seeing a pattern here?

     Overall, me and Alexis have been through hell and back. We looked into the lion’s mouth and played with that little dangly thing that makes us gag/puke when we mess with it…and that metaphor made no sense at all, BUT IT MAKES SENSE. If she’s/you’re reading this (which she/you probably is/are, since she’s/you’re the only one who reads this), I just want to say this to her/you:

Alexis, I’m so sorry for the way I’ve been acting lately. I have no right to accuse you of hating me/being annoyed by me/what have you. You are one of the greatest persons I have ever met, and I am glad to have the greatest amount of honor of being your brother. If I was given the choice to have either everything bad that could happen to me but I still was your brother or to live the perfect life but I didn’t know you, I would take the former in a heartbeat. You mean the world and more to me, and I would be devastated if you were suddenly dead/nowhere to be found (hell, I probably wouldn’t leave my room for a week or so, I’d be that devastated). Hell, I’d take the bullet for you if it came down to that. I know I’m not the most perfect big brother ever, and that there does exist people who could fit the role better than me, but it means a lot that despite all the stupid crap I do, you still love me as if I was your big brother (it also means volumes all the times you said that I was the best brother ever, even though you have a half-brother). You’re very sweet, you’re probably the nicest and most adorable person ever, and you’re a very good artist and writer (hell, I’d read your book if you ever published one), despite what you may say when you get in your own bouts of depression. This has went on longer than I intended to, but remember Alexis: I love you with all of my heart, and I would do anything just to see you the happiest you can be. And that’s the truth, the whole truth, and nothing BUT…the truth.

 Well, it’s almost 1 AM, and I need to go to bed. Career Day is tomorrow, and it lasts until 4th period. So no AP Chemistry YAY!!! As for the title of this blog, why not use the quote I decided to use as a sort of life motto: Just take all that love and turn it into care…

     Until then, everyone…

***Setting of Post Start: same old story, same old song and dance, 5:00 PM*

     Well, As the title of this post says: prom was yesterday. I didn’t go, because: 

1. I didn’t have a date for prom (take note: to me, prom is more important that any other school dance (ex. Homecoming) and I didn’t want to go to the most important dance of high school alone). I did try to get a date, though (okay, so it was two people and those two were the girls I have a massive crush, so what)
2. I didn’t pay for the ticket (thing was $25 bucks for a single person, not to mention all the other crap you have to have, such as a tux/suit, a ride to take you (and your date, if you have one) to prom, and a whole bunch of other crap).
3. Why go now when I have another chance to go next year? Simple logic, since I am a junior.

It’s going to be different next year, though. Allison will probably be in Covington with her boyfriend Austin. I can’t really claim anything about Alexis, since she’s only a year younger than me and she has someone else she likes (they may be dating, but who knows, even she doesn’t know, but could I say “All Love is Unrequited?”). I mean, I know that the first person I’m asking to prom next year will be Alexis, because I’d like for us to go to prom either before I graduate or she graduates (hey, if Allison’s boyfriend who’s in college can go with her, why couldn’t I go with Alexis her senior year?).

     Instead of going to prom, I instead spent it with two of my best friends, Caleb and Michael. Yesterday, we went over by a restaurant called Five Guys. PROTIP: If you’re planning on heading to Owensboro, head to Five Guys. They have the BEST burgers here. And the fries are pretty awesome, and the Cajun fries are really spicy, even for me (take note: I’m one of those guys who thinks that a spicy chicken sandwish w/ buffalo sauce on it isn’t spicy enough). We had our burgers (which are huge), went over to Wal-Mart and bought some Skylanders for the game (Caleb bought DVDs of Deliverance, Pulp Fiction, and The Thing). We played Skylanders for a while, then we watched Tucker and Dale vs. Evil. A great parody of horror movies with hillbillies, with the hillbillies (Tucker and Dale) as the good guys. Even then, it has some pretty gory scenes in it. Go find at Wal-Mart or something and watch it, it’s worth every penny. Next week, we’re playing a game called Call of Cthulhu (if you’re wondering what game that is, think along the lines of Dungeons and Dragons).

     Well, that ends it for now. Expect the first question I ask to people that went to prom to be “Did you get drunk?” See ya next post, guys and girls!

Until then, everyone….

***Setting of Post Start: my room, 2:16 PM***

 Well…Spring Break’s almost over already (oh, btw, I’m on Spring Break, WOO SPRING BREAK), and I barely done anything. I finally beat Persona 4, a game that’s taken me about 6 months to complete, with a play time of 85 hours and 42 minutes. Yep, and I also have a report due next week, and I’m supposed to read (and finish) a book on a certain list and do a report on it by next week. Go me and my major procrastination issues. 

     Well, I’m going back to school on Monday, and it’s gone pretty slow, slower than I expected. I’ll be glad to see the friends I won’t get to see tomorrow (a.k.a. all  but two). I’ve been getting the hang of driving. The only things I have trouble with is maintaining speed and turn signals (I turn them on when I’m literally at the stop sign). I’m a pretty cautious driver, though I bet that I’ll get better with more experience. I wish I could drive further distances, but I only ever driven to Livermore, and that’s only 2-5 miles away. But eventually, I’ll get my intermediate’s. One of the first things I plan on doing is driving to Cloverport to see Alexis. Been wanting to do that for a year now, and maybe now I can have the opportunity to do that by this summer.

     Hmmm…what else is there to say? Spring Break’s almost over, and I still have nothing to do…maybe I’ll watch It’s a Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad World. I need to get that back to Caleb tomorrow, had that since…December, I think? Maybe even longer…I’m pretty forgetful sometimes…. Oh well, I’ll see everyone next post. Sayonara bye bye!

     Until then, everyone…